Roller Coaster

Yikes!

I knew I hadn't written in here for a while, but I never imagined it had been over a month!  I somehow thought I would have more time once the kids went back to school.  I was clearly high.  Between being a taxi driver, after school activities, stupid errands, and school itself, we seem to have very little time for fun.

I do, however, have time to nap.  Priorities!

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The past few weeks have been an emotional roller coaster.  It's always ups and downs with me, but I usually go through a week or more of each emotions.  A week of happy.  Two weeks of sad.  A week of angry.  You get the picture.  We've been dealing with a day or two of misery or happiness or anger and it's been taking its toll on me.

My eating habits have been shit.  I tell myself that it's ok because I'm not gaining anything, but it's so much more than that.  When I eat like shit, I feel like shit.  I can't seem to get control of my diet when I can't even control my feelings.  So frustrating!  

I am taking advantage of the "nothing" by getting my food sitch under control.  The nothing is when I am not angry, sad, manic, or happy.  I just am.  I've been able to force myself to eat well, which is kind of easy when you don't feel like eating, anyway.  The nothing sounds like a good thing, but it sometimes winds up making me sad, anyway.

I love being bipolar!

*Side note (and Mike hates this):  I HATE when people go, "OMG, I am feeling bipolar today," or, "She's acting so bipolar."

No.  You have no idea.

K, carrying on...

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I've been wanting to write about a few different topics and just haven't had the energy to do so.  I'm hoping that I will get to one of them this week.  I enjoy writing and it's a great outlet for me.

Anyway, done for now.  Let's not get too carried away! ;)